YOUR IN-GAME NAME: Sorrow
YOUR STEAM ID: STEAM_0:1:128680624
ANY SMURFS / ALTERNATE ACCOUNTS THAT YOU MAY HAVE: negative
SERVER GROUP: AWP
WHAT SERVER WERE YOU BANNED ON: AWP - AWP AU
STAFF MEMBER THAT PUNISHED YOU: My name is Tito
TIME AND DATE OF BAN: 30/3/2020 , midday
REASON FOR BAN: "talking shit" was changed to "Inappropriate Language"
WHY I SHOULD BE UNBANNED / UNMUTED: I would just like to start with apologising to Tito for what I have said to him, I didn't treat you with respect, that everyone deserves and that was a terrible fault on my part. My demeanour and behaviour towards you during that period of time was unacceptable and I truly regret it. I hope you can look past my previous lack of judgement and hear me out Tito.
It has been roughly 2 months since my permanent mute and gag was issued and during that time I have heard from multiple sources as to why I was given out this perm. I have been told there is a large "pile" of evidence of me showing toxic and damaging behaviour on the server, as to which I have never seen nor known about. I was honestly surprised when I was told this, I admit in 2019 towards the beginning I was quite toxic over voice comms and I truly tried these past few years to correct that, I was 16 at the time and I was acting very childish, but in the past year and a half I've honestly tried to correct my behaviour and become a part of the community. During my time as staff I did argue a lot with the team, particularly having some grievances with Fedora, I ask for your forgiveness on this topic Fedora, we just didn't get along and I did act immature. But these examples occurred more than 6 months ago, as to which during then and now I have not received warnings about my behaviour, although I may have been muted once for saying the N word I think. I understand mgbolts advocated quite strongly towards me being given a perm mute and gag, I may be wrong but I was told this information by someone who I will not reveal, privacy and all. Mg and I have some personal issues with each other, which I am happy to go into, but not on a public forum, open to discussion in DM's with an admin , let me know. But I never brought these issues onto the server, lest maybe one time telling him to stop spamming /slap after Kora asked him not to. There are a lot of grievances I have towards certain players on the server, but I've to the best of my ability tried to keep it off the server, I think I've failed sometimes but we're all human aren't we. Most of these grievances are sourced from the knowledge I learned of that suggested they were actively trying to get me demoted from staff. I don't agree with their methods nor ever will, but that is in the past, I haven't been staff for over 9 months now I think, I honestly request that those events be left in the past, I am a different person now, and lest their be some people on the server community that don't like me, there are quite a few that are okay with me, some I may even call friends. There are several admins/moderators that have said to me, they believe I was not displaying behaviour "bad enough" to receive a perm mute and gag, those being Bloomzey, Kora, Inoob, Kevin and Stomedy whereas while I have not asked him, I have a friendly relationship with Blazemore.
I've had a perm mute and gag for nearly two months now, but I still play regularly, I enjoy the server a lot, and people do recognise me, I would like to be able to communicate with them. I respectfully request that my perm mute and gag is removed as I believe I have atoned for what I have done and I'm an active part of the server, I want to make the server better however I can, I lost my chance at staff, but I honestly just want to be able to play and have a good time with my mates.
Once again, Tito you deserved better treatment than I gave and I am thanking you for the two months you did give me to reflect on my behaviour and build/develop my character. But I hope I am given a second chance, I am dedicated to this server and arguably I'm a part of the awp community, thank you for reading my appeal, have a great day.
Sorrow.